Thursday, July 21, 2022

The Grief Quilt


I spent the summer of 2021 cleaning up, mending, and quilting Aunt Ola's quilt top. My mom gave it to my sister, Jann, after Aunt Ola died. Jann gave it to me on a trip to Birmingham during Covid.  The quilt was a mess, these diamond shapes created from hexagons.  The layout created a parallelogram with borders that were uneven.  It was obvious that the quilt brought Aunt Ola grief as she had tried to cut some of the designs along the edges to make some sense out of the sideways-leaning design. I thought it just needed some love.  I'd always been a sucker for lost causes.

Aunt Ola hand pieced the hexagons with white and black thread along with some stitching with what might be kite string.  Many areas had some damage or had come unstitched.

I went to the Quilt Shop in Hendersonville and bought some unbleached muslin for the backing.  I chose not to use batting, making a lightweight quilt. I bought some quilt needles and thread.  I had to cut the muslin in half to create the backing.  On a trip back to Birmingham my sister, Jann, sewed the two halves together on her machine so that the backing would fit under the quilt top.

As I worked on the quilt, my own grief was on the mend. It had been a year since my partner died. I quilted each hexagon except the black ones around each design and mended the seams and damaged pieces as I quilted.  And as I quilted I thought about Aunt Ola, my mother-in-law, Jewell, who taught me how to quilt.  Both women have passed. I wondered what my Aunt Ola had made with the scraps that created this quilt. I thought about my grandmother, who I never met, but whose quilt hangs in my bedroom along with a specially-made-for-me quilt hanging from Jewell.  I thought about all the women who saved scraps and created beautiful quilts for families and friends, all the unknown artists whose creations have long been forgotten.  I hoped Aunt Ola was watching and smiling. I knew Jewell was rolling her eyes at these uneven stitches.

I realized that to square the quilt, I would need two right angle triangles to fill in the spaces caused by the leaning design.  But before that, I had to decide where the quilt would begin and end.  The places that had been cut off, leaving irregular edges, had to be cleaned up.  So I made those decisions after lots of observations and measurements, carefully taking out stitches, removing partial patterns. I finally finished the quilt top by the end of summer and folded it up for the cedar chest until I moved to Montevallo. I really could not make a decision how to square up the quilt, and making a border was something I couldn't even consider.

In the sixth month after my move, I pulled out Aunt Ola's quilt with the intention of finishing it. I would just dive into it and finish it, border and all. I went to JoAnn's and spent time looking for that fill-in fabric for those right triangles. I didn't go in with any other idea of what I wanted other than small-design fabric. The quilt was bold enough in its original form.  I just depended upon my instinct to find the material.  After looking at many bolts of material, I came upon the scattering-stars-in-the-night design.  It reminded me of all the star quilters who had been scattered around the world and whose spirits scattered the night sky.  Even the lady who cut my yards from the bolt took a double take when she unbolted the material.

It wasn't until I was working with the fabric that the black background seemed appropriate for the black hexagons.  I really didn't intend to get black fabric, but it worked with the quilt top.  It blended with the black hexagons, which made it easier to attach them to the fabric.

So. I measured and measured. I didn't have a giant protractor to figure accurate triangle shapes, so I just trusted myself to get it close. I cut them. I sewed their edges to the folded black hexagons. The result was giant triangular spaces. I had to do something about that, so I used pieces of the quilt that were leftover and appliqued them to the triangles.  Tried to get them somewhat even.  Looked ok.  Thought maybe after the border was on, I'd see how it looked, and maybe applique some more scraps later.

The border was a nightmare.  There wasn't enough material to simply fold over and sew the border, so I started using what I had left over from the muslin for the border.  Measuring, measuring. Cutting.  Ironing folds. Bloodying my fingers as I stuck pins into them, by accident, of course.  As I started sewing the border, I would adjust, tug, try to even it up.  It's ok.  But far from perfect. Far from even. But square enough. Like an impressionist painting, the quilt should be viewed from a comfortable distance; no close examination. 

Even in the struggle with the border, my own healing process accelerated.  Aunt Ola's grief led her to abandon her quilt, but then the quilt helped me embrace my own grief as it witnessed the better part of my own healing.  The quilt is beautiful to me, mostly because it is so imperfect and full of intuitive decisions, meditative struggle.  It's a metaphor for the imperfect beauty created by grief.

Thank you, Aunt Ola.






 

Monday, April 25, 2022

Questions to Ask When Buying a House

 When was this house built? 
 Do you know who the builder is/was? 
 How old is the roof? Has it ever been replaced? 
 Have stray shingles ever fallen to the ground? If so, when? 
 How old is the hot water heater? Brand? Any evidence of leaking around the hot water heater? 
 How old is the HVAC system? Brand? Any recent repairs? 
 Is there any water damage around the doors or windows? 
 Are there cracks in the garage and/or driveway? 
 Is the sheetrock tape separating from the wall? 
 Is there water damage on the walls or ceiling? 
 Is the pipe from the hot water heater into the house made of copper? 
 Is there a water pressure regulator anywhere on the plumbing? What is the present water pressure? 
 Are there any leaks under the sinks? 
 Do the ceiling fans squeak? 
 Are all lights in working order? 
 Check all light/ceiling fan switches and GFCI outlets. Are there any dead switches? If so, what did they originally power up? 
 If applicable, listen to the garbage disposal to see if it runs smoothly. 
 Check all drains to see if they are clear and clean. If drains are slow, ask why? 
 Turn on faucets to their wide-open position to check for pressure or debris in the water. If you hear squealing when turning them off, there may be a pressure issue. 
 Do you see mold or mildew in the bathrooms, especially around caulked areas and tile? 
 Check for hard water build up around faucets and in toilets. 
 Flush toilets to make sure they empty and refill normally. 
 Notice any water damage around toilets. 
 Check the caulking around the base of the toilets to see if they are stabilized. 
 Are pipes under sinks sealed around the openings in the walls/cabinets? 
 Are there gaps in the flooring around fixtures or appliances? 
 Are all floors and baseboards free of gaps? 
 Do the windows open, close, and lock easily? Are they clean? 
 Is there any damage to the walls? Make sure all holes are sealed after walls are emptied.  Check behind the washer and dryer area to see if there is mold or mildew or the sheetrock is softened. This indicates a leak. 
If there is a septic tank, ask for the date of the last clean-out.
 Do the sellers smoke or allow smoking in their home? 
 Are the yard and outbuilding areas free of debris and mold or mildew? 
 Are there any recent repairs that the new owners should be aware of? Is there paperwork/warranty on these repairs to be given to the new owners? 
 Are all downspouts and extensions positioned away from the house? 
 Has there ever been termite damage? 
 Has the house ever flooded? 
 Ask what internet companies are available in the area. 
 If there is carpet, walk the room to make sure the floor feels level. 
 If you are having any painting done, require the painter to prime first. 
 Before moving in have professional cleaners clean the house from top to bottom, including the garage, appliances, lights, and ceiling fans.